Brain

1.         Brain: What does the character think about? What are his goals, aspirations, or dreams?

Sometimes I wonder if the men on the ranch realize that their lives are just as lonely and miserable as my live is. They force me to live out in the stable house and call me "nigger", but what do they really have? They have nothing. They are lonely, miserable, illiterate fools. At least I have my books. I can escape into that world. Their lives consist of the fields, card games, booze, and the cat house. If that is what their privilege buys them, then I do not want to buy in. 

 But then I get angry! If I were one of them, I would not even be here! My knowledge and my experiences would pull me to the grandest heights! Instead I am here, lower than low. I remember my childhood. "I was born right here in Southern California. My old man had a chicken ranch, ‘bout ten acres. The white kids come to play at our place, an’ sometimes I went to play with them, and some of them was pretty nice. My ‘ol man didn’t like that. I never knew till long later why he didn’t like that. But I know now. There wasn’t another colored family for miles around. And now there ain’t a colored man on this ranch an’ there’s jus’ one family in Soledad." Youthful innocence has now melted into adult realities.

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